yesterday morning i smacked miss 6 hard, like really hard on her legs. i didn't really mean to smack her that hard but sometimes you just 'connect' if you know what i mean? the night before she got into big trouble for banging on mr 3's very sore infected ear and in the morning she did it again - i lost it.
i feel bad, no correction, i feel terrible. i left her in her room afterwards then i went back in and talked to her about it. i told her i was very upset at her for touching is sore ear again and that was very mean but i told her i was sorry i smacked her so hard and that i loved her very much. we talked a little more and she cried and said sorry to mr 3.
mornings are stressful and i'm not using that as an excuse but there is no denying it. getting 4 kids up, fed, lunches made, dressed, bags packed, hair and teeth done, in the car and on the road by 8am is no easy exercise.
i try very hard not to yell, i try very hard not to smack - but sometimes i do.
i hate it and i always feel terrible. so yep i'm a bad mama.
do you ever lose it?